You know what’s an odd thought to me? The fact that Retroware TV, a site dedicated to the games that make us feel nostalgic, has lived long enough to be nostalgic itself. Just like how I can remember sitting in the living room playing my Genesis, or opening up my GameCube on Christmas morning, I can remember the anticipation I had leading up to my favorite creators dropping a new article or video. Then I look at my gut, my drinking problem, and my reliance on a job I hate to not sleep on the street, and realize that the simpler times have gone.
The days of the Aggregate Site have waned and faded, just like the original batteries in all those ‘Legend of Zelda’ carts, yet the memories will remain, just like the rage from losing your save data when the batteries died in your ‘Legend of Zelda’ cart. Looking back to the early to mid 2010s, RWTV was one stop shopping to catch up on LGR, Pushing Up Roses, Pat the NES Punk, but now YouTube has claimed them and thus people’s attention. Nowadays, things are looking a little rough. As of this writing, the last video to be uploaded was on September 5th 2018. The last article posted was on July 8th 2019. Hell, my last post was on June 28th 2019. It’s a little sad that the site is cooling off like a star post supernova, but such is the nature of things. Maybe one day Retroware TV will be reinvigorated, rising from the ashes like a cliche stolen from a previous article, but in this moment this appears to be an end of an era.
So let’s do what we do best and talk about a little bit of nostalgia.
Back in 2011, I was in a terrible car accident (not the nostalgic part, I don’t live in a Cronenberg movie). Well, not so much a car accident as much as an accident involving a car. Someone decided that the road wasn’t good enough to drive on, so they hopped the curb and took a walk with us pedestrians. I did attempt to heroically leap out of the way, but life isn’t a movie, so that did fuck all to avoid two tons of Grade A American minivan. Once I was out of the hospital, I started a miserable six month recovery. I was broken, internally as well as externally, lost, and everything about my future seemed bleak.
Now, I’m not saying that Retroware TV single handedly saved me; that would be ridiculous. That honor goes towards therapy, oxycodone, and anger. What it did help with was reconnecting me to the games I loved when I was younger. Retro gaming got away from me over the years, so seeing people give a retrospective to all the games and systems of my youth made me live my own experiences all over again. THAT’S what helped me. I got back into retro gaming and, in turn, the indie retro gaming scene. I guess that also means that, in a way, Retroware TV is also responsible for all the money Steam sucked out of me.
When there was a push to bring new writing talent onto the site, I was honored to be chosen. I have no idea why I was chosen since I was blackout drunk when I applied (I found out that my series got approved when I received a ‘congratulations’ email; I was very confused since I thought I didn’t go for it), but I was honored nonetheless. I felt like I could actually pay back the people who helped me by doing something I was decent at. Being able to write about the games I wanted to revisit gave me the excuse I needed to actually play them. No longer would I be distracted by pesky things like cooking food or nurturing relationships. I HAVE to play ‘Urban Yeti’ goddamnit!
Going forward, it seems like Retroware TV will become the very thing it was built to appreciate. We look back at old games to revisit memories as well as to kill a little time and this site will be a monument to that. Everyone who visits will see a moment captured in time, a museum to the days when people collaborated in a way that made the whole picture a different entity than the sum of its parts. It was a different time, it was an enjoyable time, but now it’s just time.